Love Like A Rainstorm

To set the context: My current life song has been Samurai Sword by Highasakite.  I love deep/sad music because it helps me connect to the parts of me I don't always know how to address. I have been listening to this on repeat for days. I showed this song to Noemi when I got to Texas and we both had it on repeat during the trip. She is also a 4 on the ennegram (if you don't know your number look it up).  Sunday night we decided to stay in and eat homemade flan (although I was not allowed into the kitchen). The rain began to fall. It was gentle at first and quickly became a thunderstorm.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9R1QB0m91RY (listen to this before reading the rest)

This poem is dedicated to anyone who has every struggled with their faith, connection to the universe, or place in this world. You are not alone and whatever your belief system is, you absolutely matter!


Love Like A Rainstorm 

Rain falls down
All I can do it look out the window
I see your beauty
It scares me
I know you are reminding me of your majesty 
But I want to know if you care about my heart
The wind blows in
I feel the chill

Light flashes,
Lightning fills the sky
Purple Flashes of fury 
You are close,
I can't look away.
I have no place to run.

CRASH, BOOM
The Thunder makes my bones shake
The room sways
I am still insignificant
The rain pours out

The power goes out
The doors are shut, the rumble is too loud
I am worried
The rain rages on
I am still insignificant 

A message is received
there is a tornado warning 
How much more can I take?
Fear fills my heart.

My friend tells me,
"Let us Pray."
I say,
"I know you are trying to get our attention."
I have to face you.
Three stories high
Flash floods below
Tornado outside
"Here I am."
Arms open wide

What did you hear, my friend ask
Tears fall down my eyes
He is going to love me like a rainstorm.

The wind slows down
The rain becomes gentle
Power is restored
The light in the sky fades.
My heart is calm.
I am ready to embrace.
I am ready to love like a rainstorm.






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